Stalker.

Aaamin ko, masarap mang isipin na may naghahabol sa iyo pero nakakatakot din.

Ngayong linggo lang akong nakapagpasyang sumama sa isang trip papuntang Culasi dahil gusto ko muna ng kapayapaan. Ilang buwan ka na niya kasi akong sinusundan, binabantayan at inaakit. Gusto kong magpakalayo muna sa kanya kahit pansamantala lamang. Kahit saglit lang, gusto ko muna siyang kalimutan. Akala ko, sa pagbabakasyon kong ito ay mangyayari lahat ng inaasam ko, ngunit...


Mali.


Nung pagdating namin ay nagpasya agad kaming mag videoke at kumanta. Kinuha ko ang songbook at binuklat. Pagbukas ko...

Pangalan niya agad ang tumambad sa akin!

Nagsimula na akong kabahan. Bakit hindi nya ako tinantanan. Dali-dalin akong lumabas sa resthouse na tinutuluyan para maninigarilyo sana pero nung naghanap ako ng ashtray...halos lumuwa ang aking mga mata sa nakita ko...

Siya.

Tuluyan na akong kinabahan at natakot. Tumakbo ako papalayo sa lugar na inakala kong hindi ko na siya makikita pa. Sa sobrang pagod ko ay nauhaw at naghanap ng tubig. Tumigil ako nung papalapit na ako sa isang banga. Ngunit, laking gulat ko nang naghihintay na pala siya sa akin doon.

  




Siya si DICK, ang aking stalker.

Bwahahaha.

Kinikilig Ako.

Dahil dito:

 Bukas paupunta kami diyan at guess sino kasama ko???

Well, well, well...deep well!

Si Mr. Seaman lang naman!

Pahinga muna sa pagiging mabait at magbabalik na ang Dyosa! Bwahaha. (baklang bakla)

Sunset.

I did not feel anything.

That is how I would perfectly describe how it feels to finally let go of a person...a lover... and a past. Several months ago, when my break-up with my first m2m relationship was still fresh, I would always feel different. Most of the time, I would be uneasy and always feel a sharp pain piercing through my heart every time we would have a conversation. Of course, there is this effort to hide it but instead of helping, it would make the feeling worse. It would magnify the hurt. I would always act that everything is normal but you know from deep within that you are mourning. Sometimes there are instances that you would want to throw yourself at that person and be tempted to ask him to take you back. You do all there is to show that you are not affected at all but no matter how much you would hide it, you just cannot lie to yourself that you are still in love with him.

Honestly, I really did not know when to start and pick up the pieces. I would often say to the people who knew what I was going through that I can make it, and that I am ok. This is just to cut the questions and cover up for the hell that I was experiencing. For sometime I would convince myself that all shall pass but I also know that I was not ready to let it pass. I was bitter and no matter how I try to tell that person, my friends and myself that I am already over "him", there is always the truth that I am NOT.

But then a new Love came...and even though I hate to admit it, the line that says "the best way to forget the past is to find a new one" is actually true. When I met this new guy, who would later on be my partner, things suddenly changed. The fear that was in my heart was gently eradicated and surprisingly I find myself opening up to people and sharing laughter with them. Every single day that I share together with that person becomes my therapy to slowly forget the pain and the person that caused it. Slowly, I have turned to making this new relationship work rather than hoping that the old relationship would come back. Hope was slowly budding in my heart together with the feeling of being happy. With the unfolding of a new Love, I found new meaning in Life .

When Sunshine (my ex) called today, I was surprised. The bad memories of the past were gone. The feeling of pain in my heart was gone. And my love for him was gone.

I did not feel anything.

Now I can finally say...I AM OVER HIM.

Abangan.

3 Men.

3 Things in common.

3 Stories to tell.

My bestfriends.

Abangan.

Sagabal.

Mahirap mang tanggapin pero may mga tao o bagay talaga na sagabal sa ating piniling daan. Ito ay mga bagay-bagay na di mo magpipigilang gawin o tikman kahit nakapagpasya ka na sa buhay. Ika nga nila it is those things that "you hate to love".

Kani-kanina lang nanood ako ng opening number sa A.S.A.P at siya ang naabutan ko.
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Damn! Di ba, sabagal talaga sa pagiging BAKLA ko!

Shit. Makes me wanna go back to being STRAIGHT. Hahaha.


Washafuke.

Adventures of TPV (Top, Bottom, Versa.)

Si Top , Bottom at Versa nagpataasan ng ihi.

Top: Ako? Top of the Line!

Bottom: Asus, wala yan. Ako? Bottomless!

Versa: Weeeeh! Ako? Foreign Exchange!


O, dollar rate teh! bwahaha.

Kalibugan

Kinapa ko ito. Hinding hindi ko na talaga mapigilan ang sarili ko. Kahit may importanteng bagay akong gagawin, sige pa rin ako sa pagkapa.

Hinimas-himas. Damang dama ko ang sarap na dulot nito sa mga palad ko.

Sinalat-salat. Hindi na ako nag aksya pa ng panahon. Minsanan lang ito at kailangan namnamin.

Binuksan. Napangiti ako. Ito ang gustong-gusto ko.

Biglang hinila ng dahan-dahan.

At hinawakan ng mahigpit.

Parang ayaw ko nang pakawalan.
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Yan ang ginawa ko sa Ukay-ukay kanina.

Bwhahaha. Kala nyo ano ha? Mga horny!!!