" May boyfriend na ako, di mo ba alam yan? Kilala mo siya, yung kabarkada natin. Ikaw naman kasi eh di ko alam kung totoo yung sinabi mo dati...puro ka kasi biro"
- Yan ang natanggap kong text sa isang kabarkada na biniro kung ligawan noon -
"Nanligaw naman ako sayo pero sabi mo may GF ka at di ka pa ready. For the record, I was really falling for you dinaan ko lang sa biro kasi baka ma offend ka"
- Yan ang sagot ng isang nanghihinayang na tao -
"Thanks dude. AKo din naman eh. Sayang nga eh pero andito na 'to"
- Akala ko ako lang...siya din pala. (buti nalang)
Hay buhay naman talaga! Huhu.
The Google translator really amazes me! I tried translating this...
"Molecule mad at me"
...from English to Filipino. And I got this as the answer...
"Titing galit na galit sa akin"
Bwahahaha. Try it to believe it! Peeeeeerfeeeeect!
Dear Jay,
Una sa lahat, magandang araw sa iyo. Hangad ko ang anumang kabutihan sa araw na ito para sa iyo. Lubos akong nagpapasalamat na sa wakas ay nahawakan mo na rin kung ano ang pinakatago tago ko. Nahimas mo na ang lahat ng sulok ng katawan ko. Nasalat mo na pati ang mga nakakakiliting parte ng aking kabuuan. Ngayon mo lang ako napaligaya ng husto. Pakiramdam ko nagiging "isa" na tayo. Sa tingin ko sa susunod na sakyan mo ako...wala na akong hahanapin pang iba. Sa loob ng ilang taon na akoy napa sa iyo...nagyon mo lang ako...
hinugasan.
Lubos na nagmamahal,
Ang iyong kotse (bwahahaha)
P.S.
Maging masaya ka para sa akin...at least di na tayo parehong tigang. ooops sorry po master. hahaha
P.S. (last na toh)
Nakita ko yung pwet mo kanina habang naglilinis ka...hot mo pala pag nakatuwad ka.
Bwahahaha. Tang inang kotse to ah! Mapalitan nga! (echos!)
Opo. Hindi po kayo nagkakamali sa pagbasa ng post ko.
Gusto kong umihi ng isang tao...taong babae...taong babae na tigang at walang magawa sa buhay kundi maghanap ng mga kamalian sa ibang tao para gawing malaking isyu at ibunyag sa management nung sa ganun ay mapahamak ang mga ito ay siya naman ay magawaran bilang isang "concened citizen"...
wheeeeeeh. ang haba nun. (kasing habi ng bulbul ko. hahaaha)
Anyway, nanggagalaiti talaga ako sa galit at puot sa isang babaeng Finance Officer namin sa kumpanya. Bukod sa napakasipsip na sa presidente naming puti (south african) ang hilig hilig pa mag manipulat ng mga bagay-bagay para lahat ng gusto nya ay mangyayari.
Case in Point:
Panahon na naman ng bigayan ng bonus sa amin kaya lang di gaya ng ibang kumpanya na pareho lahat ang tatanggapin ng mga empleyado, kami naman ay performance based. Last year nakuha ko ang anim sa walong individual goals at kahit papaano ay mataas na rin dapat ang makuha kong rating.....hanggang sa pumasok ang bruha. Nag dialuoge ba naman ng...
"sigurado ka ba sa mga results mo? hindi yata makatutuhanan. duda talaga ako"
What the fuck...putang ina mo...ang ilan lang sa mga gusto kong sabihin sa pagmumukha niya. Kung duda siya eh di siya na ang gumawa ng mga goals ko sa susunod. Tang ina, production kami at sila finance lang...nag iinarte pa! Ang masakit pa nito, sumakay naman ang mga puti (pati bayag puti).
"Owkay, let oos joost defer first jay's eyvaluashion oontil dah facts are veerified"
Pakshit ng baka naman o! Iverify pa? Okay lang sana pag gawin sa lahat, ang siste ang sa akin lang ang pina verify! Pakshit ng baka talaga. Buti nalang nakapagpigil ako kundi sasabihin ko sana sa puti at sa bruhang mukhang mojacko...
"Ekzzzkyus mey, wudju mind gettin your fez out oof the way coz i wood like to peez (piss) off at di fez of dat laydeeee."
O di ba...susyal! Gusto ko lang ihian pagmumukha ng bruha at higit sa lahat i fuck ko yung bibig, ilong at ang tenga nya.
I am Pissed so i wanna piss! (walang basagan ng trip. hehe)
Woooooohhhhh. that was great! pasensya na kailangan ko lang ilabas ang frustrations ko. hahahaha.
Peace loving po talaga akong tao...in fact twag nila sa akin ay (fallen) Angel.
Am I just too confident with myself? or other people are just making a big issue out of my being single?
I have had relationships with women in the past. In fact, I am regarded as a magnet for the ladies. With an innocent looking set of eyes...a great sense of humor and a squeaky clean background, there is no doubt that some women would be attracted (and fooled). The only problem I guess is that I am not blessed with awesome good looks...but I am sure, a nice paying job plus a nice car can compensate for it. (hindi naman ako masyadong mayabang. hahaha). I may have relationships with the opposite sex but I have to admit not a lot of people know about it, not even my parents. You see, all my life I have been very secretive about my personal life much more my love life. Sometimes people would suspect that I am having a relationship with a girl but before I would confirm it to them, the relationships has already ended!
I have always believed that I am very discreet. In fact, if people could have "smelled" my being bisexual then they would have confronted me. I act normal around guys. I drink with them, chase girls in skirts with them (actually they chase girls while I secretly follow behind to look at the nice arse. bwahaha) and I share the same naughty jokes with them.
So I don't understand! Somebody I know was pretty furious at me tonight and posted at the Facebook wall of my cousin calling me "lousy Gay". I did not bother to give much attention to it. In fact I just laughed when my cousin told me about it. (they were the ones who were furious and reported the profile as Abusive. buti nga) But as for me, it just kept me thinking...
Did she suspect that I am gay because of my being single OR Am I slowly being...
UNMASKED? ( I hope not or I have to find a new girl...as my mask. eewwweeeee. hahaha)
Napalingon ako.
Kanina lang ay nagdadalawang isip pa ako. Kaya ko ba 'to?
Kakayanin ko. Kumakabog man ang dibdib ko pero...kakayanin ko to.
Eto na't na order ko na sya...wala nang balikan to!
Lumabas na siya, preskong presko.
At nung tumambad na sa akin ang katawan niya,
Napasigaw ako...
"Extra Rice Pleaaaaaaaassssssssee!!!"
Nyahahaha. (lokohan lang to ha)
Isang chat sa Facebook:
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Mar: Oi ano angyari sa fb mo?
Ako: Dinis-able ng Facebook. Tsk. ewan ko kung bakit
Mar: Na disable ba talaga yan o gusto mo lang magpapapansin sa akin?
Ako: Ulol. hahaha. matagal na akong nagpapansin sa yo pre
Mar: Haha. Ah ganun ba? Di ko kasi napansin.
Ako: Tingin ko mahal na nga kita pre eh.
Mar: Di nga, hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin...hahaha. that's if you have boobs though
Ako: Magpapagawa ako...china made. hehe
Mar: Mahal din naman kita.
Ako: Kung babae lang ako pre...i'd throw myself at you (with my body wrapped in bombs). suicide bomber pala. hehe
Mar: Haha. It only happens in the movies, pre.
Ako: Haha Ulol!
Mar: Pre mauna na ako kasi malamig dito
Ako: Ok ako na din pre kasi alas dose na ng hatinggabi.
Mar: Bye pre...ingat
Ako: Pre..ayokong sabihin na "I love You" ooopsss.
Mar: Hahaha. Loko-loko. Basta same here. haha
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Normal na kulitan lang kung babasahin...pero pag ang ka-chat mo pala ay parang ganito...
Haizzzzzz. Masama bang mangarap na sana totoo?
January 22, 20101 12:01 am
From now on...
I'll save MONEY.
I'll hope for LOVE.
And I'll slowly pick up the PIECES of the mess that I made with my Life.
The first step is actually accepting that...I NEED TO GROW UP!
These past few months have been so tumultuous for me. It was during these times that my confusion on myself has been stronger than ever. They say that maturity comes with age but I guess that does not apply to me. These past few months I have been so reckless. Reckless with money...reckless with other people's hearts...and reckless with my own behavior.
I feel that I am in state of constant commotion. I want to keep on going with whatever I like without even stopping a bit to think about any impacts of my actions. I have hurt a lot of people already with being tactless, but I always convince myself that it is just being straightforward and a little honesty won't hurt. I have been spending like crazy, most of the time in drinking with my friends and taking care of the bill after, again, I would just tell myself that it is hard earned money so I must party harder. I behave differently in some occasions, behaviors that I myself could not imagine doing, but I would always try to reason out that it is acceptable because of my designation. I would make myself believe that I could always get away with it because I have the higher salary..I have the higher position and I have the higher place in the society.
I am not the person I used to be and far from the person I wanted to be. This is not what I wanted for me to become. This is not me. These are not the things that I am capable of. I cannot believe the hurt I have inflicted to others and the havoc that I burdened myself with. As I look upon myself in the mirror...I just realized one thing...
I don't know ME.
Just like a cool breeze in a long summer day...
Just like the drop of water in the cracked fields of a dessert...
Just like the glimmer of a falling star...
Just like the eclipse of darkness into the night...
Just like a wandering thought...
Just like the fading of a song playing on a radio...
Just like the eye closing into sleep...
Love ended peacefully.
Just like that.
Thanks and goodbye my Pangga.
