Saturday, August 28, 2010

August Rush.

I felt something deep inside of me.

There's happiness, there's sorrow, there's loneliness, there's a mix of all the emotions.

I tried so hard not to, but I failed.

I breathed deeply hoping to find some meaning in what seems to happen.

But then the first tear dropped and I broke down.
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It has been years since the last time I remembered myself crying.

This time for no reason at all, the tears just can't stop falling.

I'm just really wondering...
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What was it about "August Rush" that made me cry?

Or was it something else. 

Friday, August 27, 2010

Asshole 101:An Idiot's Guide to a complete Asshole!

Okay, here's your guide to being a complete asshooooleeee. Not that I am one, I just know a lot of people who are naturally talented with it. I know one very very very well... (wink)

1. Look like one
 
- Okay in order to look like an A-hole, you must be tall...and ugly. You must walk awkwardly like Santa having swollen balls and of course you must have this special smile that when you do it, people around wanna prick your face with an ice pick or screw driver.
 
2. Think like one 
 
- Assholes have microscopic brains or it may have the right size but lacks the right minerals to actually function. Your brain should be more like a decoration and could actually be detached if needed. That is why you think like nuts, there is no symmetry in your thinking and you cannot even play connect the dots with it.

3. Act like one
 
- You shout! Bang things like helmets and notebooks! Get mad at an instant and before a baby can finish the word pooh-keh, you are already fine and laughing. It should be your day's biggest objective to berate somebody at the start of the day then if you are not contented  then you go find for things that can give you a right to berate another innocent soul then the list just goes on an on.  And then smile, get mad and smile and get mad and smile all at the same time.
 
4. Feel like one
 
- You should believe that you are a genius even though you look stupid. You should convince yourself that you are the only person who is all-righteous even though in every 10 decisions of yours, 11 are failures. You decide quickly without using that underdeveloped brain of yours and fight for it even if it means your shame, then if hell will break loose from your decision, you turn to deaf mode and feel like nothing happened. Kever!
 
5. Be like one
 
- The total package should be, harass people then smile... with fingers interlocked with one another, and then smirk! Then shout "who maade that stuuuuupid decision"!
 
There you go... you are all set to be a certified "ASSHOLE"
 
Funny... it reminds me of my BOSS! 

Washafuke!

Pangga.

"Pangga, hindi ko pa alam kung ano ako basta ang alam ko lang nung kinausap mo ako ayaw na kitang pakawalan baka hindi na ako makahanap ng tulad mo"

He said those words with the Illongo accent. Innocent, subtle and sweet.

"Pangga, ewan ko din? Masaya lang talaga ako pag kausap ka. Gusto ko nandito lang ako at inaalagaan ang taong nagpapangiti sa akin. Basta gusto ko matagal mag stay sa buhay mo"

I said those words with the Cebuano Accent. Experienced, playful and hoping.

Hoping that I can keep that promise!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

G4M Adventures : The Cousins


G4M has long been gone already but the memories still live on. From the profile sharing to the meet-ups and finally to the sexual escapades, i have but a few only. (bakeeet? few naman ang less than 30 ah! hihi)

Around May 2009, I went to Manila for a one week seminar for being a Management Systems Auditor (di nila alam, katawang lupa pala ino-audit ko. bwahaha). I opted to stay in the New Horizons Hotel in Mandaluyong since the place was not so strict about visitors and at the same time, it was very proximate to a mall, LRT, and Accenture...the ingredients for an ultimate sexperience. (o yan ha, napaka demure ko na. lol)

Even on the first night, my "hunting" urge was high so I logged on to my G4M account.  After a  few clicks and a lot of profile shopping, I chose somebody with the account name "malibogna3per". (Parang coffee na may coffemate lang. panalo!). At first we checked out each other in videocam afterwhich we both decided to meet-up at my hotel. "Trip (to heaven) lang to pre" was my word of caution...na effective naman at napaniwala ko siya. (hindi ako manloloko...wais lang)

I must admit it was my first time to hook-up with somebody outside my turf, Cebu. So I had my fair share of some jitters and butterflies in the stomach but I guess the libido and the horny in me was so powerful that it overshadowed my feelings of backing out. I took a shower and changed clothes, in case something will come up, at least I would smell at taste good (dunkin donuts ikaw ba yan?). A few minutes after, he was already at my door. Whoala Koala Waka-waka (mapapsayaw ka talaga ala Shakira), I was surprised because he looks better in person and did I say he was hot? He was an above average looking guy with a toned body and dresses well too. But that is just not the catch, he has one of the yummiest "bulge" I have ever seen. Without even thinking, I decided. Something "must" happen tonight! My hopes were high when he saw me and blurted "shit, ok na ok ka din tol ah". (ahhhhh...tinigasan na ako at this point).

I handed to him a beer and had that "tropa" talk. We introduced ourselves to each other.  He was Mark. Sheeeet, even when I am talking to him I still can't take mtyeyes on that bulge. He must have caught me staring at it because he would also try to touch it sometimes, implying something (feelingero ang pucha. lol). We were about to drink our second cans when I decided to go for the kill. I grabbed him by the collar and kissed him. I thought he was going to decline but he fought and returned the favor, fuck talentadong kisser pala ang ulol. I was leading him to bed when he let go of me. I was thinking "tang ina baka nagyon pa to mag inarte na i'm in the game na". He apologized, looked worried and sheepishly told me "Pre, nasa baba kasi pinsan ko eh, pwede bang papuntahin nalang natin dito sa taas. kawawa naman kasi. Ok lang yun, manonood lang din yun."

I backed off a bit. Though I already have a hard-on, I was trying to think fast. Those stories of being held-up in their hotel rooms, the stories of being killed by callboys, and the stories of being gang raped (eto lang yung medyo acceptable sa akin. bwahaha). I calmed down and decided to call it a night. "Sige mag inuman nalang tayo pre" was all I can say. It's better than risking my (beautiful) life to a mere hook-up. Just to be more safe about it, I was the one who called the front desk to ask the guy sitting at the lounge to proceed to my room. "Tang ina, sex na naging bato pa" was all I can think.

A couple of minutes later I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and...Wachama fuckin mother asshole...he was way good looking than his cousin. If Mark was an 8 he sure was a 9.5 on the scale. By the way he looks, he was much younger than Mark. If a while ago I was kinda hesistant to let him on, this time I told Mark "Tol, kanina mo pa sana sinabi. Nakakihaya tuloy sa pinsan mo" (sabay tingin sa camera with a devilish smile. bwahaha). He is Kevin, 18 at medyo mahiyain. We had the same height but he had a porcelain like skin, very kissable red lips, talagang artistahin at ang tsarap tsarap. Mapapa tsup tsup ka talaga. (yung tipong pwede mo siyang gawing stuff toy sa ka cute-an).

Damn! Just as I though it was already the end when Mark declined but when I saw Kevin things just got better. (What did I do to deserve this euphoria. hahaha). One hot guy was good enough but two makes it scorching hot. So we proceeded with our drinking session but my mind was not actually there. I was already planning on my next move. I played along with the "tropa" kind of conversation, talking a lot about girls and the like (nakalimutan ko na ang "the like" kasi i'm clearly not interested). 

We had at least 5 cans each when Mark made the first move. He went to where I was sitting and kissed me passionately on the lips. I reciprocated it with a full tounge-to-tounge kissing. I thought that Kevin would just be watching but on the corner of my eye, I saw him move towards me. They squeezed me in between, Kevin behind and Mark in front (alam ko na ang feeling ng isang burger patty...antsalap pala. haha). Then we proceeded to to bed. Mark and Kevin went on top of the bed and started taking off their clothes. I crawled towards them and before I can reach them, Mark grabbed me and lead me to his cock. I was not disappointed. From Mark's bulge, I really expected that he was "huge". Andddddddd, indeed he was. (as in)

Mark's cock was very very hard. He grabbed my hair and lead it right unto his shaft. Slowly at first but then he would push it harder, so hard that his cock would penetrate the deepest part of my mouth. While I was doing Mark, Kevin took my hand and lead it to his cock. I smiled but he just answered with a lick on his lower lip. It was the signal that I was to do him this time. I devoured on his cock. It was one of the smoothest and fragrant cock I have ever tasted. He was the epitome of yumminess. His cock was a bit smaller than Marks' but it was as hard. Maybe it runs in the blood. I swallowed his cock then proceeded to lick his balls. I observed that Kevin liked it, I proceeded further and rimmed his ass. This time all he can do was pull my hair so hard that I thought it would take it off from my scalp. He loves rimming!

I stopped and signaled Kevin to stand up. I knelt before him while I grabbed Mark to do his share. I lead Mark's mouth into my cock. Fuuuuucccckkkkk! I was eating Kevin while his cousin was eating mine. The mere though of it was making my cock as hard as steel. I bet even superman can't break it without himself sucking it. Bwahaha. We were in that position for sometime. Mark would alternately go down for my cock and balls and I would do the same for Kevin. Mark got up and hugged me while kissing me again, he urged Kevin to lie down. I climbed on top of Kevin and Mark climbed on my back. We kissed, my throbbing cock rubbing against Kevin's while Mark's cock was titillating my butt cheeks. They squeezed me with their hot and sweaty bodies. Shiiiiiiittttttt, it cannot get better than this. 

This is one of a kind encounter, I thought, this is just like what I saw in the porn. Then Mark whispered "Fuck kita", I was surprised, looked at him and answered "Pare, top ako eh. Di ko pa nasubukan. Ayoko muna". I was top then and the mere thought of another flesh tearing away the tightness of my anus, gives me the shivers. Mark's cock was also beyond the usual size so I know that we will have a hard time. I know I would one day try it but not now...not with him. Mark climbed of my back and lied next to Kevin, I figured he was already stopping because he was dissapointed, but I was wrong. They just exchanged places. Now Kevin was behind me and I was facing Mark indulging myself in a steamy kiss. Then Kevin whispered to me :

"Hindi ko to na try pero ako nalang kaya mag fuck sa'yo. First time nating dalawa". I looked at him, those deep eyes, those red lips and that innocent look on his face.

That night became a history in the making...           

I'm going STRAIGHT!

It's TRUE!

I am only gonna go STRAIGHT kung sya ang magiging Girlfriend ko!


Promise...promise...magiging straight na talaga ako! Damn! Si Anne naman kasi eh... nakakainis. She's sssssoooooooo hoooooooot!

Kaya lang dapat bitbitin nya rin to!
Di ba para masaya? Damn! Si Sam naman kasi eh... nakakainis din. He's sssssoooooooo hoooooooot!

Confused na tuloy ako (ayyyy... ngayon ko pa lang nalaman. bwahaha) Dream threesome ko sila...iniisip ko pa lang ngayon mukhang lalabasan na ako! Sam licking Anne's...Anne licking mine...Me licking Sam's...then vice versa. (parang byahe lang sa jeep)

Tang ina taglibog ako ngayon ah...eto nga't nag papantasya at nagdidiliryo nalang. hahaizzz. 

Mag SOP jakol na nga lang at matawagan nga si.....

Halik ni Hudas.

Good Friday 2010.

It has already been one of our tradition to go to Church with the whole family every Good Friday. Believe it or not, it's one of the few times that we got to attend something together.

When we arrived at the church, it was already full so we just had to stay outside to hear mass. I prayed (believe me...I did. I am not that evil. Hahaha). 

When the mass was about to end, I saw a workmate. He's a hot kalbo guy sporting a "devilish" trademark smile. Let's call him Pawsha.

I stood and went to where Pawsha was. He smiled and we shook hands. We talked about a lot of things from work to love stories to politics (naks) and other stuffs (no kinky stuff though, behave ako dahil nasa church po ako. bwahaha).

In the middle of our conversation...Pawsha stopped and looked at something from afar. He was wondering...a few seconds and he asked me.

"What's that?" Pointing to a line of people going into the the middle of the church.

"Ahhh. That one? It's actually the part of this mass that people line up to KISS the crucifix" I explained.

He looked at me with a deep look.

" Come on let's KISS" He said.

Did I just hear what I heared? I froze...my mind racing to understand clearly what he just said.

I was shocked. Never in my entire life that I was offered a kiss in the church and worst from a GUY!

I knew what he meant but I jokingly answered.

"Here? As in you wanna do it right now? A lot of people are watching! Come on let's do it in my car"

"Huh?" His face distorted (now it was his time to be shocked) It took a few seconds before he realized my punchline.

"ULOL!!!" was all he can say!
"Hmmmmm (nag-isip ako) baka patulan kita diyan eh"

Halik ni Hudas, gusto mo? Haha. Washafuke!

KKK.

No, I am not into a "nationalistic" mood my friends...not even close to one. This is my "gay" version of the (in)famous "KKK". Kumbaga customized ika nga, tulad ng flag sa baba...di ko siya pinaghirapan...bigla nalang siyang naging ganyan...di ko naman inano. hahaha.

I think there are three most important "K's" in the sexuality aspect of being a PLU. Kahinaan...Karupokan at Kapokpokan (pardon the term...but it is what is best to describe such). What makes us admire...fall in love and fall in bed? bwahaha. I'm giving my own dissection (i chose the word kasi it sounds like circumsition. lol) 
Kahinaan:

What are my weaknesses when it comes to men? What makes me give that second and third glances that eventually turn into a stare? What makes me wish that I was---invisible---so that I can just place my face in front of their crotch and smell it until finally licking it (even with their pants/shorts on...ohhhhh...sooooo hot). What turns "on" the admiration button in me that sometimes I think of becoming a stalker... a "magandang" stalker at that! (char lang)

Piercing chinito eyes, fair complexion, average body build, and a clean refreshing look...the boy nextdoor type of guy (yung parang amoy baby cologne parati without even trying). Anybody with all those would definitely steal my imagination...and my breath away. If I am superman then these kind of men will be my kryptonite. With these type of guys, I become a schoolgirl...blushing...sooo Maria Clara and faints everytime I get even just the slightest of their attention. Tell me, don't you become a helpless lamb in front someone like below:
Karupokan:

After a subtle flirting or better known as the fuckin' "getting to know you" stage, what makes me fall in love with a guy? If the physical attributes of a person weakens me...what makes me trust him? What makes you believe, even though so futile, in a male to male relationship? What are the simple sweet things that one person does...that sweeps me off my feet...swoons my head with joy and fills me heart with laughter? What makes me think of him everyday, making me hope that he does the same too. What is in him that makes me take the risks of falling in love with somebody...of the same gender? Ano ba ang nagiging cause ng frequent "pagdadalaga" ko? (isama mo na rin ang menstruation period. bwahaha)

Tender Loving Care...that's a simple yet a powerful tool that would melt the iceberg surrounding my self and bring down the walls confining my heart. If a guy starts to send messages in the middle of nowhere...calls during unexpected times and turns up when the world seems to turn its back on me...then I become an easy prey. I am most vulnerable when I'm down! To put everything that I described in one person...I would say that he should be a...Prince Charming waiting to rescue me... And if "charm" was a person, I'd say he would probably be like below: 
Kapokpokan:

Amongst the three "K's", I have to admit that this one is where I really don't have enough to share with (charness..nagmamaganda lang po!). The admiration and flirting is done...the falling in love stage has been completed...now its time to turn up the heat, let go of the inhibitions (ang kapote ni maria clara tanggalin na at palitan ng bikining itim. lol), and get to the "bottom---line". What would make me hot? What would turn my libido on to a tousand and one degrees? What would give me the "rush" that I would definitely say "yes" even when he hasn't popped the question...Can I have sex with you? Or better yet...ako na mismo magtanong ng...Ilang round gusto mo? Hahahaha. What would make me finally break my virginal (daw) vow? (000pppss.. ibaba ang mga kilay please. lol)

P.U.N.K.<---- Playful (ma-eksperimento). Ultimately horny (malibog). Naughty (medyo bastos). and Kinky (maraming pa effect). Those are four of the qualities that would make me "fall" in bed. They say that you usually choose what you are NOT, so since I am nothing close to anybody above (bakla na nga, sinungaling pa. hahaha) ganyang mga qualities pinili ko. I would love a double faced person to be with...saintly looking on the outside...but rockingly more tasty on the inside...parang chocolates na M&M (dito pala galing ang abbrev. na M2M. lol). The moment I knew what I was looking...there is this only person that I knew that's totally P.U.N.K


Dah bah? Need some proof? (hello...videos...scandal???)

So there you go, a hot chinito looking guy who has the sweetest personality and freakingly rough and great in bed smells good enough...but...

I think it tastes even better! 

Bwahaha. Washafuke! 

Out!

Ooooopsssss. Before you react! Let me get one thing "straight"---and its not my sexuality..you idiot!--- Read my mouth...

I am NOT yet going OUT of this CLOSET!
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This is what I am talking about...

OUT--- a collective blog about coming OUT!

Now since two of my favvooooorite bloggers, Callboi and Mandaya, are supporting this one, who am I not to? I wanna do my part and spread this...to ALL of my followers. (Teka, last time I checked isa pa lang ah). Haha.

My participation on this ---- Pangungulit at Pambwibwisit!

Soooo....i'd better flex those brain neurons 'cause...this is an OUTright battle...ng Pagandahan! bwahaha.

So wachawatin for??? Salin Na! 

Washafuke! 

Friday, August 20, 2010

Sands of Love.

I was on the beach...alone.

Not because I was really alone but it was a choice.

I wanted some time to think...I wanted to be sure...I long for him to find me even just this once.

While thingking, I was forming some words in the sand.

I wanted to express what i felt even if it's just thru the sands...

I made an oval then gently formed the letters...

I...

a Heart (to signify Love)...

and stopped.

Somebody came from behind...tapped my back and spoke...

"Where's the U there?" He asked.

I looked behind my back and it was Him...

I let out a timid answered...

"Its You".

He smiled but let out a breath of hopelessness...
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Some things are never meant to be.

A Letter of Protest to ABS-CBN.

To: Maria A. Ressa
      ABS-CBN News Head

To the Management of ABS-CBN,


Good Day! Before anything else, I would like to say that I have been an avid fan and viewer of many ABS-CBN shows in the past up until now. I am a solid Kapamilya by heart! That is why it hurts me most to write this letter of Protest regarding your flagship news program, TV Patrol.

I would like to protest that you take out the messages that you run or flash beneath your screens when you are reporting in TV Patrol. (please refer to below picture)


My Lola and Lolo sings every time they watch it because they think that it is...VIDEOKE!

Haha. Washafuke!

Glances.


First Glance:

One Glance is enough for a Straight Guy.
Gaydar : 1-3% chances
Verdict: Don't be too ambitious.

Second Glance:

A cloud of doubt...a gray area
Gaydar: 30-55%
Verdict: Maybe the guy knows you and he just have a hard time remembering but then again...this is already borderline.

Third Glance:

It takes one to know one.
Gaydar: 80-95%
Verdict: Chances are he's checking YOU!

But always remember...If you you caught a guy staring at you...it also means you were looking at HIM too.

So better get your "Gaydars" calibrated 'cause with us...opportunities knock only ONCE!

Washafuke!

Movie of the Year.


If my life were to be a movie right now, I bet I would have this as my title:

"The Calling"

Dahil sa rasong simple lang...most of my friends are actually "callmates" lang. bwhaha. Ikaw ba naman bigyan ng kumpanya ng postpaid na Globe phone na may unlimited calls to Globe and TM, eh di kakaririn mo din and pagtawag. Gamitan lang yan! Wohooooo.

Sabi nga sa memo:

"We are pleased to give you your company phone which should only be used for official business only..."

Sagot ko naman "eh bakit, hindi ba bussiness rin naman ang "monkey business" ah? daaaah baaaaah? hahahaha, nababakla na yata ako ah!

Anyway, on with the show tayo. Now since I already have a title...it's now time to meet the casts...


Siya ung magiging leading man ko at first. He is the one that I am with at the start of the movie. Pagpasok pa lang dapat may love scenes agad para at least pa demure effect at wholesome ang movie.char! But eventually he would leave me...for personal reasons (kasi baka tuluyan daw syang mabakla.tang ina!). Near the end of the story, malalaman nalang natin na nasira na buhay niya....naging adik...basagulero...nagsisi at may planong magpakamatay (hindi ako bitter ha) kasi na realize nya na mahal nya pa rin ako pero di ko na tinanggap. (o wag ma imbyerna...this is my movie men!). May romantic scene na basang-basa sya sa ulan sa labas ng condo (este kubo pala. hahaha) at sabay sigaw sa akin:

"Sa-rang-He-Yeo" ay sorry korean version pala to...idub nalang nating sa tagalog . hahaha. (I love you daw ang sabi)

Na touch ako sa gesture at napasigaw din galing sa bintana....

"Pak yoh". Sabay tugtug ng "it must have been love but its over now"...Nyahahahaha

When my world fell apart, I met this guy...ooopsss before thinking about kabaklaan love na yan...hindi...hindi siya love interest ko. He is one friend that I met during my days of beng lonely because Ahred left me for reasons unknown even to CSI:Las Vegas. He is the "sidekick" ika nga sa pinoy films. O! Drei wag kumunot noo mo at hindi ikaw bida...film ko to! Kung gusto mo maging bida dung ka sa blog mo mag inarte! Bwahahaha. Ganyan lang ang relationship namin...she's the sister..este...brother I never had! Wala kaming bed scenes dito kasi mag bestfriend nga...ewan ko lang sa kanya kung nag fafantasize sya sa akin. hahaha. peace bro! This is a typical scene from my movie. Magkikita kami sa isang lugar at dahil discreet ako...tatawagin ko siya:

"Hey dude. How are ya?"

At dahil super discreet din sya...sasagot yan:

"Shhuuuuukla...kalorkey galore ka teh" Nyeh! Tang ina. hahahah


Para may konting twist naman, dapat may conflict sa amin ni Ahred ng konti. Kumbaga may spice dapat ang relasyon namin...sabihin nalang natin na nahuli din ako minsan ni Ahred sa movie na may kalaplapan na iba. (O wag na kayong magtanong pa. Anong akala nyos sa akin Santa at di pwedeng magkasala? Mukha lang akong Santa pero di talaga. Naks). So Kenjo is the guy that I was with nung nahuli kami ni Ahred....syempre may bed scene na naman ito kasi for "arts sake" eh. Echos! At di lang basta bed scenes...rough sex pa dapat...Gago kasi tong si Kenjo eh..antsalap! Ang eksena...nahuli kami ni Ahred na nag sex nung lumingon ako nakita ko siya...tumakbo siya papalayo...si kenjo parang namutla at sinabing:

"Patay tayo...sundan mo"

At dahil mahal na mahal ko si Ahred, sumagot ako:

"Mamaya na...tapusin muna natin to" Bwahahaha. Landi ko!

Si Brentrich - The One Night Stand Guy:

Well as the name suggests, dapat talaga may.....bed scene....na naman! Syempre pangit naman pag nag one night stand kami na nagkwentuhan lang. Ang tawag siguro dun ay evangilization hindi one night stand! hahaha. Nung iniwan ako ni Ahred, pumasok ako sa CR....umiyak...sumandal sa pader....at dahan-dahang bumaba habang nakatalikod sa pader at may dialogue na...ang dumi dumi ko! Nung biglang may nag doorbell! Binuksan ko at nandun pala ang nag-dedeliver ng pizza si Brentrich. Lumabas ako habang basang basa pa at dahil broken hearted, demure at dalagang pilipina ako, wala akong ganang makipag-usap sa mga strangers...eto lang nasabi ko:

"Ano...tayo na?" Ang gwapo naman kasi eh. bwahaha

Ayun naka get-over na ako. (bwhahaha. ang tagal kong maka get-over ano?) Pero hindi naging kami kasi mali yung dineliver nyang pizza, sa kapitbahay ko pala dapat yun at ang ginagamit niyng pantawag sa akin ay Pizza Hut delivery Hotline! Wohoooooo! Natanggal tuloy ang loko.

Si Mac - The Promising Love:

This is the guy that you'll never know that you're gonna fall for him. Nasa background lang siya in the first few minutes of the film. Silent...reserved and fuckingly hot (hahaha biglang liko). Nung naka get-over na ako at nagpromise na hindi na muna magmamahal...ay siya namang pagdating ni Mac. Skeptical ako nung una pero nung may mga kindat...tapik at "I love you" messages na...natutunan ko na uling magmahal. Ang movie ay magtatapos sa isang napakakilig na eksena...hinatid ko siya kasi medyo nakainum (wala akong planung gawin kahayukan sa kanya kasi hindi naman ako manyak....malibog lang. hahaha). Nung inihatid ko na siya sa kwarto niya...bigla nya akong hinila sa kama at bago naglapat ang aming mga labi akoy nagtanong:

"Gaano mo ako ka mahal?"

Kinuha nya ang kamay ko at pinasok sa brief niya (tang ina ang tigas ng nakapa ko)...at this time close up ang camera sa "crotch" (parang porn to ah)

"Ikaw ang dahilan sa bawat pag TIGAS nito" 

Wowoweeeeeeee...Pilipinas Win na Win...ang shweeeeeeet naman! Tumambling kaya ako. That's the sweetest statement na narinig ko sa buong buhay ko. Hahahahahahaha

Then fade na ang screen....tapos labas ang credits! Kayo na ang bahala kung ano ang mangyayari sa ending basta nasa kami kaming dalawa at parehong tinitigasan...you do the math.

Those are the men in my Life right now...next stop...the women.....ewwwwwwweeeee

Hahaha. Kanya-kanyang trip lang to mga Adik! Washafuke!

Reboot.


Fuck! I really need a reboot!

Since my "leave" a few weeks ago, I have been in a dilemma. There is this feeling that I am not my own self. I go to work but then I just do the routine...no more extra "push to the limit" stuff that I used to do. I interact with my friends but then I just do casual talk with them...no more "I am just here for you" drama that I am most famous for. I call a BFF (Boy Friend sa Fone. hahaha) but then we just end up having a plain sex on the phone...no more "I'm missing you more everyday" moments that they love me for.

I am cold. I am plain. I am lifeless...

(Sabayan nyo ako sa pag sigaw...)

I am NOT Me.

Something just doesn't feel right...something is bugging me...something is MISSING!

I know I have to face it right now. No matter how I try to hide from it, it will still find me. The only thing to do is to face this fear. Sooner or later it will come to this point so I figured, if I have to do this...it has to be NOW!

With this, I am getting a pen and a paper and once and for all do this bold decision...I am writing a letter to the ONE that I am missing the most....

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Dear Sex,


Hi. How are you? I guess its been months since my last hook up with you. Sorry, I have been too busy lately to even think about you. I thought I can make it without you but I was wrong.............

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Bwhahahaha. Damn! Sex lang pala ang katapat ng kaartehang to. Washafuke!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Hot Pinoy.

Filipinos have conquered every world imaginable... sports... fashion... world records... international news and of course entertainment. There seems to be no stopping for the Filipino brilliance to be showcased and admired all over the world.

Some Filipinos who shine in their chosen endeavor not only come in a package of superb talent but also in good looking packages...(uhmmmmmm, did I hear me say yummy? hahaha). Like this extra hot Pinoy who was suggested to me by a chat friend. He is now making waves as Youtube sensation featured twice in the Ellen Degeneres' Show.

Joseph Vincent is our Hot Pinoy of the Week. He sings his own version of the recent hits in America which is most of the time better than the original. I was supposed to upload a video of his but it always fails...don't know why. Anyway, just search for his name in Youtube and you'll gonna get tons and tons of his videos.


With superb singing voice and one hell of a good looking face...he is one person where the word "Cool" and "Hot" means the same.

Proud to be Pinoy! Washafuke!

Pag-ibig at Panaginip.


Yan yata ang pinakatumpak na salita para ma describe ang pinagdadaanan namin ni Ahred ngayon. Ilang araw na din kaming walang text...hindi na naguusap pag gabi at hindi man lang nagpaparamdam sa isa't-isa. Kung gaano kami ka-sweet sa isa't isa nung isang linggo...sya namang panlalamig namin nagyong linggo.

Alam ko ang susunod nyong tanong ay...Bakit???

Hayaan nyo...hindi kayo nag-iisa. Ako man ay naguguluhan din kung bakit. Sa totoo lang hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ang eksaktong dahilan at bigla nalang nagkaganito. May mga duda ngunit walang sagot akong nakukuha. Baka nagalit siya dahil nahuli akong nakipag cam minsan...baka nagsasawa na siya...baka nakakita na ng iba...baka nag-iisip...baka nakukulitan...baka may tampo...isan daang "baka" pa ang maibibigay ko ngunit hindi ko talaga alam ang totoong rason. Isa lang ang siguradong alam ko...

Nagbago na siya.

Ugali ko talaga ang hindi rin magtanong. Nahihintay na pagsabihan ng ibang tao kung may hinanakit man sila o tampo...siguro nahihiya o ayaw kong marinig ang dapat kong marinig. Andami naming pangako sa isa't isa...maghihintayan....laging andyan para sa sa isa't-isa at ang pagbibigay ng sarili...ngunit tingin ko wala na lahat yun.

Hindi ko man aminin na naapektuhan ako...pilit ko mang iwaglit sa isip ko na nami-miss ko rin kulitan namin at kahit anong panlilinlang ang gawin ko sa sarili na ok lang ang lahat...nasasaktan pa rin ako...at yan ang totoo. Masakit man pero wala na eh. Sa ngayon dapat hindi na balkan pa kung ano man ang nangyari dati....ang mga pangako at ang mga binitiwang salita ng pag-asa at pag-ibig.

Sabi nga nila...minsan sa buhay ay kailangan lang natin tanggapin na may mga bagay talaga na hindi mangyayari kahit gaano pa kaganda sa tingin mo ang magagawa nito sa buhay mo. 

Sa tingin ko dito na magtatapos...

....ang sana ay isang pag-ibig...at panaginip.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Inosente de Ti.

Finding a hot straight guy in a chatroom full of gays, bisexual and trippers is like finding a needle in a haystack. That is why it was indeed very very lucky for me to have met...on cam... Kenjo_lee.

I know that he was not a regular on the chatroom that I often hang out with because of the fact that he used a temporary name and not a regular username. Usually, only 10% of the users in the chatroom have authentic pictures while the rest of the 95% are fake and posers. People do not take notice of you unless you have a pretty good looking pic...you are somebody who looks for and initiates  war and you are annoyingly ultra-friendly with other chatters.

Kenjo Lee was not any one of those. His temporary name was simply Kenjo and the font size and color he used was very small and plainly black....in short...he never gets noticed. He sent several invitations for anybody who wants to view him but nobody even took the bait. Now being somebody who often goes into the chatroom, I have known that most of the discreet people uses a temporary name or go anonymous because of the reason that they are basically...discreet.

"Ting". A bell of naughtiness crossed my mind.

I called his attention and the next thing I knew I was trading my YM account with him. We invited each other and made some introductions. He was straight forward in his questions...an attitude that strengthened my radar that this is a typically straight "teaser" guy. He invited me to his cam and in return I invited him to.mine. The moment I opened my cam this is what I saw...

Wow! That was what I told myself. Chinito eyes...cute lips and an innocently horny looking guy...what more can you ask for? He was shooooooomokinnnnn' HOT...HOT...HOT.

We started talking and his voice was very manly. He was such a good catch that I really cannot hide my fascination and admiration. I recalled fast my "Flirting 101" moves in the art of chatting. I really thought that this guy was very innocent because of the way he looks but he was as flirty as I am. Often I would throw jokes at him and he would just answer with a smile...laugh and then licking of his lips....a very inviting licking of his lips...and everytime he does that I would just feel my sexual urge shoot a hundred times.

After half an hour, I was already ready to end our chat because I was going somewhere. We exchanged thank you's because he definitely put on a great show for me...and on my part he said that I am a good and funny chatmate. I was about to say my last goodbye's when he stood up...and positioned himself in front of the camera.

What the Fuck!!!...He was only in his white brief...and then danced flauntingly for me. He sure was delicious if he was some kind of a meal. I nearly fainted! I felt that I skipped a heartbeat. I went back in front of my laptop...gave him a devilish smile...and my uninterrupted attention.

"Hmmmmm....so much for the innocence...here comes the real show"

Haha.Washafuke.

Itigil ang Kasal!!!


Many expected me to utter those words...but I didn't.

Yesterday, I attended the wedding of my former girlfriend to his long time partner. The people from our circle were having jitters...doubts and illusions on what is going to happen when I will be there.  I guess that's what they get from watching too much drama on TV.

Me and my ex-girlfriend has been an item of the past for almost seven years ago already just before she started her relationship with her soon to be husband. We started out as really good friends...before crossing the lines to become...very lame lovers. We did have some problems as a couple, however, not all of the people knew that we did part ways beautifully and no resentment nor hate was left in our heart. We have preserved the friendship even after trying it out as partners. I  really loved her...and will always do.

Her getting married is no surprise for me. She and her boyfriend has been together for almost seven years and I was one of those who would tell them to tie the knot. Cliche as it is, it would make me happy to see her happy...and that's what is important. That's why when I received the invitation with a note from my ex --"Please be there...for me"-- I never had any second thoughts of attending. I am sure seven years of being not together should have dampened and weakened my feelings for her.

But I was wrong.

As I was standing there at the Church looking at her...I sighed, in my mind I said... she is the one who got away! People were looking at me for any signs that may tell that I was affected but I was very good in hiding it....so good that I looked already dubiously happy...

When they stood up for a kiss...I saw her...very beautiful in her wedding gown...very happy in her wedding day. I thought I will not feel anything anymore...I will be numb and can truly be happy for her....for them...

But then again I was wrong. I still do have some love for her...I still do wish for my happy ending with her. 

I looked at her husband and looked away...I know what I was feeling was wrong...I know what I was hoping will never happen. Standing there at the church, I felt my knees shake. I was feeling helpless... I know,I really would have shouted:

"Itigil ang kasal"

This time it was not for her though....but for her husband who is equally desirable and yummy as her too. -wink-. Man! Ishould have tasted him. Hahahahaha.

Washafuke!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Kulitan.

That' what Ahred and I do almost everyday since we knew each other. This time, we did it using Facebook. After inviting me at facebook I observed that he posted something in his wall last Saturday.
"Ang sarap mong kausap" - was his post at the wall. Below is the excerpt of our chat game.
2:37pmMe: Hoy Ahred!!!!hehehehe
2:38pmAhred: Hahaha. Tagal mag online ah.hahahaha
2:39pmMe: parang ako ung pinatatamaan mo sa facebook mo ah
2:39pmAhred: hahahaha. alin ung masarap kausap
2:40pmMe: oo. parang ako yan ah. magpopost din nga ako
2:40pmAhred: ikaw nga un.heheheh. masarap kausap
2:44pmMe:nyahahahaha.may pinost ako... kala mo ha ikaw lang
"Ang sarap mong kausapin" - was my post.
2:45pmAhred: hahahahaha.nbasa ko na
2:45pmMe: hahahaha.nakakabaliw ka sana un pre kaya lang baka maraming magtanong at mag comment.lam mo naman artistahin tayo dito.hahahaha
2:46pmAhred: hahahahha.may pinost din aq.
"habang tumatagal naadik na aq sa yo" - was his reply at the wall.
2:47pmMe: hahahahahaha.ulol... kala mo ha ikaw lang marunong
2:47pmAhred: cge nga.
2:49pmAhred: tagal naman.hahahhaha
2:49pmMe: maghintay ka. hahahaha. kinu compose ko pa. hahahaha
2:50pmAhred: hahaha
2:51pmMe: hahahahaha. wala akong maisip na pamatay na linya ahhhhhh. tang ina
2:51pmAhred: hahahaha
2:51pmMe: a few more minutes ha
2:52pmAhred: ok
2:52pmMe: hahahahaha. corny to tol
"I'm crazy for you" - was my post.
2:54pmAhred: corny nasagad na utak mo
2:55pmMe: hahahaha. ganun nga eh, tang ina eh pamatay na linya na kasi ung sa yo eh.  hahahaha. oi...nag iisip na yan... nag iisip pa ang bata. hahahahaha
2:58pmAhred: wala din aq maisip..
2:58pmAhred: ayan na meron na. hahahahaha. walang tatalo jan
"wala aqng maisip kase ikaw lang ang nasa isip ko" - was his reply.

2:59pmMe: hahahahahha. ulol baka ma trace ng mga kaibigan ko. nyahahahahahaha
3:00pmAhred: hahahahah
3:00pmMe: meron namang chat bat sa wall pa tayo nag chachat. hahahahha
3:00pmAhred: hnd ko naman nilalagay sa wall mo ah
3:00pmMe: meron akong pamatay diyan eh pero ma iintriga ako
3:00pmMe: hahahahaha. oo nga sige sige. hahahaha. kala mo ha
3:01pmAhred: bkit ung iyo ba nilalagay mo sa wall ko
3:01pmMe: hindi ah.hindi tol
3:01pmAhred: o dba
3:01pmMe: sa wall ko lang din
3:01pmAhred: hahahah
3:01pmMe: maghintay ka dyan jorossssss
3:01pmAhred: natatakot ka naman agd
3:03pmMe: hahahahaha. tang ina... pamatay to pare. hahahahaha
3:03pmAhred: asan na
3:06pmMe: tadaaaaaaaannnggggg. hehehehehe. o ha. o ha. o ha
"I make you laugh...you make me smile, I give you hope...you give me understanding, I promise that I'll keep you in my heart...please promise that you keep me in yours too." - was my line.
3:09pmAhred: pwede na rin. hehehe
3:10pmMe: anong pwede na rin. ikaw talaga ha pamatay un pre
3:10pmAhred: hnd ko na appreciate
3:10pmMe: wala talaga tayong magawang matino
3:10pmAhred: heheheh
3:10pmMe: hahahaha. asus... baket? baket di mo naapreciate?
3:11pmAhred: ingles.. joke!
3:11pmMe: ulol. hahahahaha
3:11pmAhred: syempre and2 ka na rin sa puso ko. hehehehe
3:11pmMe: in tagalog ibig sabihin nun: wag mo akong tuksuhin dahil ako ay marupok lang. hahahahaha. ikaw nga...parte ka na ng daily na buhay ko pre. naks naman
3:12pmAhred: hahahha
3:13pmMe: may nagsabi na ba sau pre na "lovable" ka talaga. nakaadik. nakakbaliw. nakakatindig balahibo. nakakapangilabot
3:13pmAhred: meron na tapos nung cnabi nila un namatay kinabukasan hahahaha
3:14pmMe: tang ina.....okey lang basta kasama kita, sabay tayo. hehehehehe
3:14pmAhred: hahahaha
3:17pmMe: Oi, tulog muna ako. medyo my sakit ako di ba?
3:14pmAhred: cge pahinga ka muna. usap nalang tayo mamaya. hindi kasi kumpleto araw pag di kita nakakausap. hehe
3:23pmMe: Hahaha. Gago ka talaga!
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Now tell me if what I said about him being "lovable" is true or not???? Hahaiz...
Washafuke!