Ikaw ba ay TANGA?

Ikaw ba ay yung tipong niloko na, naghahangad ka pa na magbago siya?


Ikaw ba yung kahit alam mong pangalawa ka lang sa puso niya, pinipilit mo pa rin sarili mo sa kanya?


Ikaw ba yung nagagalit sa kanya pero pag tinext ka ng isang beses, balik ka na naman?


Ikaw ba yung bigay ng bigay lang samantalang siya naman ay tanggap ng tanggap?


Ikaw ba yung nag-aalaga sa kanya pero ok lang sayo na hanapin ka niya pag may gusto lang siya?


Ikaw ba yung naghintay para mag break sila ng BF niya pero nung naghiwalay na eh nagdadalawang isip pa siyang piliin ka?


Ikaw ba yung nandyan parati para sa kanya pero pag kailangan mo ng kalinga ay nag ni-night out pa rin siya?


Ikaw ba yung kahit lahat ng bagay ay nagsasabing maghanap ka ng iba, pero hindi ka pa rin nakakabitaw sa kanya?


Ikaw nga...


Ikaw nga and Dakilang TANGA!

(Disclaimer: Hindi ako to ha...hahaha, defensive)

Most Expensive Trip.

Kilometers traveled = 45 km


Gasoline Spent = PhP 1,500.00


Hotel Room + guard on duty tip = PhP 500.00


Beer = PhP 200


Boys = PhP 200


Should have only spent for the above, however, a fucking crazy drunk driver of a motorcycle bumped my car while I was manuervering for backing, and the additional expenses followed:


Hospitalization for the crazy drunk driver = PhP 8,175.00


Tip for the police officer = PhP 500.00


Additional Gasoline = PhP 2,000


Expenses for the car's repair = PhP 6,000.00


Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh....the additional amount really H-U-R-T-S! 


Anyway, still thankful that nothing serious happened to me and the driver but...


What the heck, 16K is still 16K!!!


Pwede na sana yong pambili ng isang value meal of Enchong Dee...with extra gravy. hehehe  

New Person.

Hey guys, I am happy to fall in love with this new person in my Life.


We have been seeing each other almost everyday after work and almost the whole day when I am not working.


I have to admit that it was LOVE at first sight.


I have been with this person for countless hours already and shared countless cums.


I am addicted.


I think I am in LOVE with this person...
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Sweet Revenge.

Nakalow-kah bakah!


Meron akong natanggap na masamang balita last week. Tumawag ang isa sa mga bestfriends kong itago natin sa initials na CK. Ang bungad na balita nya sa akin ay,


"Bro, may good news ako sa iyo" 


"Ano yon bro?" (tumatayo ang balahibong pusa ko sa bro. bwahaha)


"Finally, ikakasal na ako kay Mae"


Washafuk! Nayanig ang buong mundo ko para tsunami sa Japan. Bakit ngayon pah? Bakit ngayon pa na alam kong mahuhuli ko na siya sa mala dyosa kong bitag (pak!).


"Wow, I am so happy for you" Siya namang tugon ko. Plastik, ngunit di man lang napansin ng mokong. Gusto siguro na hampasin ko pa siya ng upuan para malaman niyang hindi ko gusto ang balita.


"At ikaw syempre ang (bride) bestman" Aba kakabakaba, at nakuha pa akong gawing major abubot sa kasal niya! Sheeeet puwet talaga!


"Thanks" - pa demure ko namang sagot. Alangan namang sagutin ko ng "condolence". hahaha.


Sa totoo lang medyo nagulat at nalungkot talaga ako. Kahit mag bestfriend kami meron talaga akong tinatagong lihim na pagtingin sa kanya noon pa man na kami ay (dalagita) binata pa lamang. Masakit para sa akin kung kaya hinanda ko ang aking pinakamatamis na (tamod) paghihiganti. Tama na ang luha, panahon na para sumigaw ala eula valdez sa "pangako sa iyo" ng...


"Matetekman mohwz ang paghihigante ng isang (baklang) aleeepeeeen"


So nung gabi ding iyon ay tinawagan ko si CK at inimbitahang uminom sa labas. Nag commit naman ang mokong sabay comment ng,


"Oo naman, hindi ko palalagpasin na mag inuman kami ng (bride) bestfriend ko." Bullsheeet paksheeet naman talaga oh! (Inum at blowjob gusto mo? bwahahaha)


Fastforward...


Nung nasa bar na kami, nagulat siya sa mga nag-abang sa amin. Limang magagandang chicks! Sexy at ubod ng kalibugan sa katawan ang mga pekpekmons na inimbita ko din. Tumulo ang laway nya sabay paglaki ng kanyang (bukol) mata. At dahil alam ko ang type nya may inimbita higit na katangi-tangi at alam kong matitipuhan nya.


Fastforward ulit...


Pauwi na kami at natahimik sandali. Tumingin sa isa't-isa at biglang tumawa. Nag apir at tumawa ulit.


"Bro, di ko na kailangan sabihin na isekreto natin to kasi alam mo na yun. Salamat ha. Hindi pa yun stag party ha. Hehehe. Nag condom ka ba sa partner mo kanina?"


O panalo! Kung hindi ko man siya makukuha pweeees hindi rin siya maangkin ng iba! Sa kanyang magiging asawa, eto malutong at maanghang (parang mani lang) kong birada,


"Una siya naging AKIN".


chuvanessiousnes!     

Incest.

1. (noun) Incest is sexual intercourse between close relatives




Buti nalang lasing kami.


Bui nalang walang tao sa beach nung gabing yun.


Buti nalang hindi ako marupok sa mga paanyaya niya at nakapagpigil pa ako.

Shamcey.

Sa Ingles ito ay BLOWJOB.


Sa kalye ito'y tinatawag na CHUPA.


Sa mga pa-sosyal ito ay GIVING HEAD.


Sa mga hindi masyadong sosyal na may pagka pusakal ito'y KANTOT SA BIBIG.


Hanggang sa dumating siya na nagbigay ng bagong kahulugan sa gawaing ito.

Bininibing Pilipinas Universe Shamcey Supsup

Tinatawag na  itong SHAMCEY ngayon!


Gets nyo? Happy Shamcey everyone :)

Chino.

I spotted him seated on one of the tables near the videoke machine.


I figured that he cannot be one of the waiters because he looks innocent and younger. While me and my friends were singing and having fun, I have seen him glance at our table a couple of times.


When it was time to give the microphone to him I grabbed the opportunity to create a conversation.


"Why don't you join us?" I asked to which he gladly accepted the invitation.


After that we were inseparable and had a world of our own. We were talking all the time and oblivious of the other friends that I had. I learned that the restaurant was theirs and he usually tends it during the night. He was smart (class valedictorian), sporty (basketball varsity) and hunky (have plans to enlist in the PMA). I could not stop but get (instantly) attracted to this 17-year old guy. 


I was about to think that it was so impossible because I was pretty much sure that he is straight until...


"I just want to try all things...things that are not ordinary and normal...I am very curious..."- he told me.


I let out a smile and said to myself - "That makes two of us" 


*wink* 

This is not him but he looks pretty much like to the guy above

P.S - Sorry walang sense mga sinusulat ko ha. Matagal-tagal kasi bakasyon ko. hehe

Sulok.

Alas tres na ng umaga nung nakahanap kami ng matutulugan. Isang maliit na paupahan sa kasulok-sulukan ng bayan.


"Five hundred po pwede na sa inyong lima pero hanngang 8 am lang tayo ha"- tugon ng guard sa amin.


Lahat kami ay tila wla na sa aming mga sarili. Lasing. Pagod. at Malibog na. 


Pinasunod kami ng guard sa isang maliit na kwarto. May isang higaan na dalawa lang ang kasya at may isang foam na nilatag sa sahig. Kulang na lang rehas para maging kulungan ito. Ganun pa man din, iyon ang tamang-tama para sa kung anumang mangyayari.


Bagsak kaming lima. Nagtawanan. Pagod man ay hindi pa rin kami makatulog. Alam ko bawat isa ay may mga iniisip...bawat isa nakatingin sa ilaw at naghihintay sa kung sino man ang papatay nito, tila ito ang hudyat sa mga gustong mangyari ng lahat sa umagang iyon.


Tumayo si Ramil at pinatay ang ilaw.


Madilim. Wala kaming makita ngunit dinig na dinig mo ang bawat paghinga at tila pagbilis ng tibok ng puso nga bawat isa sa amin. 


Katahimikan. Walang kumikibo at gumagalaw. Lahat naghihintay.


Hanggang sa may humila sa kamay ko at pinatayo ako papunta sa isang sulok ng kwarto. 


Sa isang sulok na naging katuparan sa lahat ng pinaghahandaan ko sa simula pa lang ng inuman. 


  

Slut.

"Putang ina mo! Fucking shit ka!"


Yan ang sigaw ng boss ko sa akin over the phone last week.


"Yes, my mother maybe a SLUT but she is the best SLUT in town! Ikaw ba naman nanay ng ganito kabait at ka cute."


Nyahahahahaha. O yan ang panalong linyang gusto kong isagot.


Anne Curtis...anong sinabi mo sa linya ko? hahaha

Sunshine (again).

"You look good"


Yan ang tanging nasambit ko sa kanya nung nagkaharap na kami. Totoo naman, basing from the last time we've met, mas relaxed yung mukha nya ngayon. Maiksi na ang buhok na lalong nagpapatingkad sa kanyang mapupugay na chinitong mata. His complexion is a bit lighter, and his body a little bit toned. 


"Ikaw din"


Yan lang naisagot niya.


Siya ang tinatawag kong "Sunhine" (see previous posts), ang ex ko at kauna-unahang naka relasyon na lalake. We started our relationship a year ago around this time din. Ours was not the usual courtship kasi we became a couple before we even met each other. Ang sabi namin sa isa't-isa, we would try loving each other not because of the physical attributes but rather we banked on the emotional connection. It was January 25, 2010 that we officially became a couple, From that time, we never had an idea how each of us looked like. I fell in love with his being "pure" and innocent. He is way younger than me yet he never fails to let me feel that what we lack in physical connection (because it was a long distance relationship), he always make it up to being so sweet over the phone.


The long distance relationship went on for two months before we decided to meet up. I went to Cebu for a business meeting and we agreed that this was the time to finally unmask everything. We also agreed that if any of us won't like each other in person, then one can go out of the relationship right away. We understood that its still different when you are in love with somebody over the phone as against seeing that person in person.


We met.


Then decided to continue. Just like the person that I have loved in the phone, he look so young and innocent (did I mention good looking chinito?). On the other hand, he likes the cute "rugged" persona that I have (that's according to him). We were very "happy" that day. We just imprisoned ourselves in the hotel room and cuddled each other like newlyweds. The love between us during that time was overflowing. Every bit of his kiss and caresses were my personal heroine. I can't get enough of him and vice versa.


However, just like the saying "some good things never last", so was our relationship. From then on, it was a downhill ride. I have to admit, we were growing crazy over each other to the point of being so strict and tight. Jealousy, doubts and too much expectations took a  toll on our budding love. The difference in the discipline between us two was also highlighted during this period. (he is a nursing student, i am a working engineer)


On the third month, I ended it.


I was hurt but I never thought it was more painful to him. Young as he is, he had no idea on how to handle his very first "heartbreak". I can still remember the painful sobs and the countless tears the night I broke up with him. 


In the past, it is my unwritten rule NEVER to go back to any ex-girlfriend or ex-boyfriend for that matter. But now that he is in front of me, I just found myself saying these words...


"I miss you, and I hope we can give it another try"


But he just answered with a Smile.


From across the table, I can see that he is more mature than before. He is no longer the boy that used to cry for me.


I looked at the mirror beside us.


I saw a "boy" that is starting to cry because of him.        

Blue.

Blue.


Ganyan ka Blue.


Ganyan ka Blue-ming Lovelife ko ngayon.


Ahihihihi (parang high school lang na nilalanggam)


Huwag nyo na lang pansinin yung horns...baka naman sabihin nyo "HORNY" din ako.


Ahahahaha.

Sorry.

Sorry guys. I have done something very terrible.


I was out early this morning for a walk in the woods to hunt birds. Since it was my rest day, I have to do something which could relax my mind and de-stress me. So I took my hunting gears and went out early.


I was just about a kilometer away from my house when I spotted a bird in one of the trees. It was still dawn so I could not clearly see what it was but it was huge. It pretty looked like as big as an eagle.


So I positioned myself in the bushes. Took my bow and placed one arrow on it. Surely it was not aware of me as it was not moving that much. Maybe it was resting. I made sure that I can hit the target perfectly because there are no second chances in hunting.


I shoot.


I hit it just perfectly on the back and it went crashing on the ground. Wow! I was so happy. I ran as fast as I can to where it fell. However, I was damned and surprised when I saw it!

Sorry guys, di ko sinasadya...PROMISE! (Bwhahaha)

Single on Valentines.

Valentines Day is fast approaching. Kahit ngayon ko lang nalaman at narining sa buong buhay ko na may ganito palang celebration (bitter? bwahaha), gagawan ko pa rin ito ng isang espesyal na entry para sa aking mga dear readers at followers (5 lang ata, akin pa yung 4 na username dun para at least may nag fofollow. bwahahaha). O sa mga single (pareho ko) sa Valentines day, here are three reasons why being single is cool on V-day!


1) Tipid


Tamah! You've heard it right, TIPID! Tipid dahil hindi mo na kailangan bumili ng bulaklak na malalanta rin naman. Hindi mo na kailangan bumili ng chocolates na ipapakain lang naman sa mga mukhang baboy na mga kaibigan at pamangkin. pag nakita mo ngang kinakain ng pamangkin ng ka-relationship yung chocoloate na binigay mo, gusto mong isaksak pati box sa bibig (hahaha). And di mo na kailangan pang mag arrange ng dinner at manood ng sine. Malay mo may bomba pa yung sinehan, ok lang sana pag yung bomba ay hindi yung pumuputok...yung bombang nagpapaputok sa BF mo. hahahaha. Sa haba-haba man ng orasyon sa lecheng Valentines day na yan...sa kama pa rin kahantungan so wag ng mag inarte, jugjugan na kung jugjugan. May pa velntines-valentines epek pa! (hahaha. di talaga bitter no?)


2) Select and Collect


Oy bunggang bungga tong second reason. Pag single ka you can go on a date with anybody you like. You can select from the display (O parang nag shopping ka lang) and you can collect as much as you like. Kung marunong ka, dapat panindigan mo ang korona na nasa ulo mo at sunggaban na lahat. Si matipunong guard ba ng funeral parlor ang gusto mo at magkaroon ng chance na maka date sa pina ka "restful" na place...sa sementeryo. O si gwapong taxi driver ba ang trip mo para bawat "patak"(ng metro) ay swak! Pwede ring si matikas na tubero at wasakin mo tubo nyo sa bahay ng valentines day para at least makapunta siya at mapatikim sa iyo ang bagong tubo. Hahaha. O di ba? Pag may BF ka magagawa mo ba tong lahat...Hindi! Hindi! Waley! (ayyy galit?)


3) Drink, get wasted and tasted!


Eto pinakamatindi pag single ka on V-day. Pwede kang malasing at walang mag da-dialogue na "Honey, wag masyadong uminom". Pwede kang malasing hanggat gusto mo at maging wasted. So magiging wasted din lahat ng lalakeng makikipagsayaw sa iyo at syempre sila din ay mapapa saiyo (ang ganda mo teh!). At pag may alak at mga lalake sa equation ang kalalabasan ay sandamukal na taste sessions. O pag may BF ka matitikman mo lang isang putahe, pero pag single ka pwde kang magtayo ng karinderya! Bungga! Puuuurfect! Faaaabyuuuulous!


O ayan sa mga single na katulad ko. wag mag mukmuk and don't waste sulking in your room this V-day because as far as I am concerned, Valentines day is for US! May anniversary naman sa mga may ka relasyon ah..makisawsaw pah!. Hahahahaha      

PJ. (Part 1: Change of Mind. Change of Heart)

He is my bestfriend.


But it was not the case the first time we met. Back in the old days I was the King of our street. I command all the other children when it comes to playing and making friends. If I say not to befriend another person then all of our neighbors would do the same.The first time I saw him, he left an impression on me...a very bad impression. I thought he was mahangin!


His being a natural flirt with all our girl barkadas plus the boy-next door looks makes him a great THREAT to my throne. As a result, I started warning my friends never to befriend the guy. At one point, I even talked with some of the boys that we would beat him up one night. We never clicked the first time.


I thought it was animosity because I want to protect my turf but then when he started connecting with me, the constant visits to my house, the constant invitations to his house and his constant insistence that he wants to hang out with me..made me fall for him. Our being friends was so fast that sometimes we would isolate ourselves from the group and hang out with exclusivity. 


He came from a broken family and lives with his Lola far away from my place. He would just visit his mom and stepdad which is my neighbors during the weekends. At first we would feel excited about seeing each other during the weekends. The moment he steps into their house he would just leave his things behind and go directly to my place. My home became his home to as he was very well accepted by my parents. They would even consider him our youngest.


The weekends would be full for us. He would help with the chores and after that we would go around town doing crazy stuff. Our favorite was riding my bicycle and going past through a village where a lot of dogs can be found. We would let the dogs run after us. For a few weeks of being with him during weekends, it made me so happy and contented. Gone are the days when I would always hate the weekends as it would mean more household chores for me. When we were together I would totally forget my problems with our poverty, self-esteem and confusion (yes this early i knew something in me does not feel normal).


As the friendship grew deeper so as my attachment to this guy. Aside from being so happy to see him during weekends, it would also make me feel sad when he leaves for his Lola on Mondays. I would miss him a lot. It seemed like my world was revolving around him. Back then, he was the only reason for my purpose.

In a very short time, I changed the way I look at him from adversary to a bestfriend. This also changed the way I feel for him from a bestfriend to an inspiration. And at that instance I knew...

...that I already  fell for him.

Astronaut.

If I am an ASTRONAUT...

Can you be the MOON so that I can land on YOU?


Sheeeeeeezzzzy! Bwahaha

Silent Boy.

Yan ang pangalan niya sa planet romeo.


Nagkapadalhan ng message.


Nagkatext.


Nagkausap.


Nagkita.


Naginuman.


Nagkalasingan.


Nagkakulitan.


At may nangyaring kababalaghan...

Delayed.

This story happened a few months ago during one trip going to Manila.


"Attention dear passengers please be advised that Cebu Pacific 4:30 pm flight will be delayed due to plane maintenance problems"


"Shit". That was the first reaction that I had. This could not have happened if my fuckingly control freak boss have not asked me to take the last flight to Manila. I normally take the second to the last so that if things like this happens then I would still have a back-up plan.


I was getting restless and all the possible curse that I can imagine for my boss, I did already! Getting his balls in between his zippers (like There's something about Mary)...getting himself drown in the toilet bowl full of shit...or he suddenly trips in a construction site where he will hit his head in a nail in front of him (of course it was me preparing the nails. hahaha)


I was getting really upset. Around four hours of zigzagging bumpy road trip from where I work to the Airport is reason enough to be really upset! I was already in a bad mood when a yellow colored creature sat next to me. (parang commercial lang ng hotdog starring papa patrick garcia)


Then suddenly everything went bright...the sun went up and I can hear the bird singing. An angel just sat right next to me (nasa langit na ba aketch?). I took a good look at him, now since I want that moment to be captured forever...pasimple na rin akong nagnakaw ng pic. (paparazzi ang drama)


Eto siya o...

O di ba yummy na angel. I even imagined myself crawling up to him and making love (naks)... unadulterated loveeeee. At dahil nag sex kami (wag makialam fantasy ko to). malalaman ko nalang a few minutes after na...


Delayed ang period.....ayyyy....flight ko pala! Hahahaha. Nakakalow-kah!

Panghihinayang.

" May boyfriend na ako, di mo ba alam yan? Kilala mo siya, yung kabarkada natin. Ikaw naman kasi eh di ko alam kung totoo yung sinabi mo dati...puro ka kasi biro"


- Yan ang natanggap kong text sa isang kabarkada na biniro kung ligawan noon -


"Nanligaw naman ako sayo pero sabi mo may GF ka at di ka pa ready. For the record, I was really falling for you dinaan ko lang sa biro kasi baka ma offend ka"


- Yan ang sagot ng isang nanghihinayang na tao -


"Thanks dude. AKo din naman eh. Sayang nga eh pero andito na 'to"


- Akala ko ako lang...siya din pala. (buti nalang)


Hay buhay naman talaga! Huhu.

Lost in Translation.

The Google translator really amazes me! I tried translating this...


"Molecule mad at me" 


...from English to Filipino. And I got this as the answer...


"Titing galit na galit sa akin"


Bwahahaha. Try it to believe it! Peeeeeerfeeeeect!

Sulat.

Dear Jay,


Una sa lahat, magandang araw sa iyo. Hangad ko ang anumang kabutihan sa araw na ito para sa iyo. Lubos akong nagpapasalamat na sa wakas ay nahawakan mo na rin kung ano ang pinakatago tago ko. Nahimas mo na ang lahat ng sulok ng katawan ko. Nasalat mo na pati ang mga nakakakiliting parte ng aking kabuuan. Ngayon mo lang ako napaligaya ng husto. Pakiramdam ko nagiging "isa" na tayo. Sa tingin ko sa susunod na sakyan mo ako...wala na akong hahanapin pang iba. Sa loob ng ilang taon na akoy napa sa iyo...nagyon mo lang ako...


hinugasan.


Lubos na nagmamahal,
Ang iyong kotse (bwahahaha)


P.S.
Maging masaya ka para sa akin...at least di na tayo parehong tigang. ooops sorry po master. hahaha


P.S. (last na toh)
Nakita ko yung pwet mo kanina habang naglilinis ka...hot mo pala pag nakatuwad ka. 

Bwahahaha. Tang inang kotse to ah! Mapalitan nga! (echos!)

Piss.

Opo. Hindi po kayo nagkakamali sa pagbasa ng post ko.


Gusto kong umihi ng isang tao...taong babae...taong babae na tigang at walang magawa sa buhay kundi maghanap ng mga kamalian sa ibang tao para gawing malaking isyu at ibunyag sa management nung sa ganun ay mapahamak ang mga ito ay siya naman ay magawaran bilang isang "concened citizen"...


wheeeeeeh. ang haba nun. (kasing habi ng bulbul ko. hahaaha)


Anyway, nanggagalaiti talaga ako sa galit at puot sa isang babaeng Finance Officer namin sa kumpanya. Bukod sa napakasipsip na sa presidente naming puti (south african) ang hilig hilig pa mag manipulat ng mga bagay-bagay para lahat ng gusto nya ay mangyayari.


Case in Point:


Panahon na naman ng bigayan ng bonus sa amin kaya lang di gaya ng ibang kumpanya na pareho lahat ang tatanggapin ng mga empleyado, kami naman ay performance based. Last year nakuha ko ang anim sa walong individual goals at kahit papaano ay mataas na rin dapat ang makuha kong rating.....hanggang sa pumasok ang bruha. Nag dialuoge ba naman ng...


"sigurado ka ba sa mga results mo? hindi yata makatutuhanan. duda talaga ako"


What the fuck...putang ina mo...ang ilan lang sa mga gusto kong sabihin sa pagmumukha niya. Kung duda siya eh di siya na ang gumawa ng mga goals ko sa susunod. Tang ina, production kami at sila finance lang...nag iinarte pa! Ang masakit pa nito, sumakay naman ang mga puti (pati bayag puti).


"Owkay, let oos joost defer first jay's eyvaluashion oontil dah facts are veerified"


Pakshit ng baka naman o! Iverify pa? Okay lang sana pag gawin sa lahat, ang siste ang sa akin lang ang pina verify! Pakshit ng baka talaga. Buti nalang nakapagpigil ako kundi sasabihin ko sana sa puti at sa bruhang mukhang mojacko...


"Ekzzzkyus mey, wudju mind gettin your fez out oof the way coz i wood like to peez (piss) off at di fez of dat laydeeee."


O di ba...susyal! Gusto ko lang ihian pagmumukha ng bruha at higit sa lahat i fuck ko yung bibig, ilong at ang tenga nya.


I am Pissed so i wanna piss! (walang basagan ng trip. hehe)


Woooooohhhhh. that was great! pasensya na kailangan ko lang ilabas ang frustrations ko. hahahaha.


Peace loving po talaga akong tao...in fact twag nila sa akin ay (fallen) Angel.

Unmasked.

Am I just too confident with myself? or other people are just making a big issue out of my being single?


I have had relationships with women in the past. In fact, I am regarded as a magnet for the ladies. With an innocent looking set of eyes...a great sense of humor and a squeaky clean background, there is no doubt that some women would be attracted (and fooled). The only problem I guess is that I am not blessed with awesome good looks...but I am sure, a nice paying job plus a nice car can compensate for it. (hindi naman ako masyadong mayabang. hahaha). I may have relationships with the opposite sex but I have to admit not a lot of people know about it, not even my parents. You see, all my life I have been very secretive about my personal life much more my love life. Sometimes people would suspect that I am having a relationship with a girl but before I would confirm it to them, the relationships has already ended!


I have always believed that I am very discreet. In fact, if people could have "smelled" my being bisexual then they would have confronted me. I act normal around guys. I drink with them, chase girls in skirts with them (actually they chase girls while I secretly follow behind to look at the nice arse. bwahaha) and I share the same naughty jokes with them.


So I don't understand! Somebody I know was pretty furious at me tonight and posted at the Facebook wall of my cousin calling me "lousy Gay". I did not bother to give much attention to it. In fact I just laughed when my cousin told me about it. (they were the ones who were furious and reported the profile as Abusive. buti nga) But as for me, it just kept me thinking...


Did she suspect that I am gay because of my being single OR Am I slowly being...


UNMASKED? ( I hope not or I have to find a new girl...as my mask. eewwweeeee. hahaha)

Extra Rice.

Napalingon ako.


Kanina lang ay nagdadalawang isip pa ako. Kaya ko ba 'to? 


Kakayanin ko. Kumakabog man ang dibdib ko pero...kakayanin ko to.


Eto na't na order ko na sya...wala nang balikan to!

Lumabas na siya, preskong presko.


At nung tumambad na sa akin ang katawan niya,


Napasigaw ako...


"Extra Rice Pleaaaaaaaassssssssee!!!"


Nyahahaha. (lokohan lang to ha)

Pangarap.

Isang chat sa Facebook:
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Mar: Oi ano angyari sa fb mo?
Ako: Dinis-able ng Facebook. Tsk. ewan ko kung bakit
Mar: Na disable ba talaga yan o gusto mo lang magpapapansin sa akin?
Ako: Ulol. hahaha. matagal na akong nagpapansin sa yo pre
Mar: Haha. Ah ganun ba? Di ko kasi napansin.
Ako: Tingin ko mahal na nga kita pre eh.
Mar: Di nga, hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin...hahaha. that's if you have boobs though
Ako: Magpapagawa ako...china made. hehe
Mar: Mahal din naman kita.
Ako: Kung babae lang ako pre...i'd throw myself at you (with my body wrapped in bombs). suicide bomber pala. hehe
Mar: Haha. It only happens in the movies, pre.
Ako: Haha Ulol!
Mar: Pre mauna na ako kasi malamig dito
Ako: Ok ako na din pre kasi alas dose na ng hatinggabi.
Mar: Bye pre...ingat
Ako: Pre..ayokong sabihin na "I love You" ooopsss.
Mar: Hahaha. Loko-loko. Basta same here. haha
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Normal na kulitan lang kung babasahin...pero pag ang ka-chat mo pala ay parang ganito...

Haizzzzzz. Masama bang mangarap na sana totoo?

Renew.

January 22, 20101 12:01 am


From now on...


I'll save MONEY.


I'll hope for LOVE.


And I'll slowly pick up the PIECES of the mess that I made with my Life.

Maturity.

The first step is actually accepting that...I NEED TO GROW UP!

I don't know me.

These past few months have been so tumultuous for me. It was during these times that my confusion on myself has been stronger than ever. They say that maturity comes with age but I guess that does not apply to me. These past few months I have been so reckless. Reckless with money...reckless with other people's hearts...and reckless with my own behavior.


I feel that I am in state of constant commotion. I want to keep on going with whatever I like without even stopping a bit to think about any impacts of my actions. I have hurt a lot of people already with being tactless, but I always convince myself that it is just being straightforward and a little honesty won't hurt. I have been spending like crazy, most of the time in drinking with my friends and taking care of the bill after, again, I would just tell myself that it is hard earned money so I must party harder. I behave differently in some occasions, behaviors that I myself could not imagine doing, but I would always try to reason out that it is acceptable because of my designation. I would make myself believe that I could always get away with it because I have the higher salary..I have the higher position and I have the higher place in the society.


I am not the person I used to be and far from the person I wanted to be. This is not what I wanted for me to become. This is not me. These are not the things that I am capable of. I cannot believe the hurt I have inflicted to others and the havoc that I burdened myself with. As I look upon myself in the mirror...I just realized one thing...


I don't know ME.

When Love Ends...

Just like a cool breeze in a long summer day...


Just like the drop of water in the cracked fields of a dessert...


Just like the glimmer of a falling star...


Just like the eclipse of darkness into the night...


Just like a wandering thought...


Just like the fading of a song playing on a radio...


Just like the eye closing into sleep...


Love ended peacefully.


Just like that.


Thanks and goodbye my Pangga.